Is it me ?

oh man i have'nt posted here in so long.
ive been a little busy and truthfully i havent been inspired.
i decided to post something today
it has trully been an interesting week wow. for some reason im feeling kinda down right now.
For reasons i will choose to not talk about. I heard this song(suffocate-jay holiday on the right) a while back i always thought it was cool but i wasnt crazy about it for some reason lately ive been really feeling it. In the course of writing this ive realized one of my problems i am suffocating

Basically there are certain things i would like to but when i have the opportunity i suffocate it because i feel its not the right opportunity and or time. Lately im feeling like i will suffocate one day as a result. I really want this to change but i really havent come upon an opportunity worth taking or have i?, maybe im too picky or maybe im right who knows. Anyhow im feeling real weird and confused now hope i figure all this stuff out. Yest someone told me i need to take more risks and this has got me thinking. However i will analyze this tomm im feeling too tired. I need to sleep but some part of me is telling me stay up. I think i will end here though for tonight tbc tomm. I'm too out of it
enjoy the song : )

update: i didnt get time to finish my.. today but most likely tomm ill probably rewrite the whole thing.

SO THIS SAYING HAS BEEN ANNOYING ME
I TOOK NOTE OF IT WHEN MY SILLY(DONT WANNA INSULT HER)PROFESSOR USED THAT AS AN EXCUSE FOR STEALING MY A AND GIVING ME A LESSER GRADE.
SO THIS WEEK I JUST KEPT SEEING IT AROUND AND AT FIRST IT WAS ANNOYING IT KEPT REMINDING ME OF THAT BAD EXPERIENCE.
BUT IVE GROWN TO LOVE THIS QUOTE AND IT HAS FORCED ME TO BE HARDER ON MY SELF ALTHOUGH THE PROFESSOR WAS WRONG AND MEAN SHE DID HAVE A POINT.
YOU GOTTA BE AHEAD OF PPL SO THEY CANT MESS U UP
SO NOW I REALLY LIKE THIS QUOTE AND I AGREE WITH IT. ANYWAYS I HATE IT WHEN PPL DO THAT TO ME DONT DO WHAT THEY HAVE TO DO AND U SUFFER AS RESULT.

Main Entry: per·sis·tent
Pronunciation: \-tənt\
Function: adjective
Etymology: Latin persistent-, persistens, present participle of persistere
Date: 1826
1: existing for a long or longer than usual time or continuously: as a: retained beyond the usual period a persistent leaf b: continuing without change in function or structure c: effective in the open for an appreciable time usually through slow volatilizing d: degraded only slowly by the environment e: remaining infective for a relatively long time in a vector after an initial period of incubation
2 a: continuing or inclined to persist in a course b: continuing to exist despite interference or treatment a persistent cough
— per·sis·tent·ly adverb

Main Entry: con·fi·dent
Pronunciation: \ˈkän-fə-dənt, -ˌdent\
Function: adjective
Etymology: Latin confident-, confidens, from present participle of confidere
Date: circa 1567
1: full of conviction : certain
2: having or showing assurance and self-reliance a confident young businessman a confident manner
3obsolete : trustful confiding

i like these two adjectives very much and will like to be more like this in my everyday life. I always get results when i evoke these qualities.

I believe i am a hardworker but would like to be more persistent
I have confidence definately believe in my abilities but i am not confident. I dont think it comes across in my actions and that is something i would like to change.

Persistence + being confident = sucess/good results u get what you want

try it and see
it might get you the job, the guy, the grade, ur dreams etc